Running from my prayers. Early educator chronicles

I have worked in childcare for over 15 years. I started as an on call sub, then floater, to teacher assistant, to lead teacher. My goal us to be a program coordinator to childcare centers. I have gone to school just to drop out started training for admin positions just to run away. But I love doing the work and helping out. I end up doing others ppl jobs if I see something that may help a classroom run smoothly. I love being the person ppl go to but when asked if I’m ready for an admin position I shy away and say no. I hate this about me I know I can do the job and finesse it but something in me wont allow me to step up to the Title. So today at a national training I was presented with a chance to step up. I had to force myself to commit and step up this time. I will create a support system and not be afraid.

I don’t know if it’s bad luck, karma,ju ju or what …..BUT I NEED A BREAK!!???!!!

Saturday morning in Fort Worth,TX rainy, mild, and windy weather. I cooked a big breakfast for the crew we horsed around as we waited on the weather to calm. About 1230 the sun started to peak…and I yelled “ok lets crew lets get dress and go find a car.” And the crowd goes wild the boys shout out what kinda car they want… A fast car, a blue car, a dragon ball z car (I wouldn’t be able to operate it lol). I didn’t know what kinda car I wanted but I know I wanted a Hatchback.

The first dealership we went to I saw a pretty blue Dodge very cute….. I test drove it and loved it as I talked to the dealer he slipped it it was in minor accident. He talked fast around the fact it was in an accident. NEXXXXXXXTTTTTT!!!!!!

So the next stop was a place I had did research on also. I lovedddd the atmosphere they were so kind and sweet to my kids. To make a long story short I ended up leaving with a Lexus. Now I am an “around the way girl” and I was happy and blessed to have this car but it was not my Hatchback. But I was happy and blessed to have a Lexus. My car I have now I have to reach in the gearshift to move gear but we rolling.

We went home chilled ate got ready to leave out for a afternoon downtown and I can not find my Drivers License. Uggggghhhh I call the dealership its not there not in either of my cars the new and old one. Its LostπŸ˜”. Tuesday morning I wake up and my new Lexus us gone!!! πŸ˜ͺπŸ˜ͺπŸ˜ͺπŸ˜ͺ My first thoughts…..WHY DIDNT I GET MY HATCHBACK. Mannnn I’m sad but grateful I have auto theft insurance so I’ll get Kelly blue book value. We planned to get a room for the boys to end Spring break but you need 2 IDs for each adult. So there goes that staycation.

I’m not sure why I’m having the sucky week I’m having but I have faith it will get better. I’m grateful I still have my other car so I can get to work.

How do u channel bad luck in to positivity?

Marriage and Video gamesπŸ˜’

I have been married for 11 lovely years. I love our marriage and growth. I was laying here remembering when we first got together in our early 20’s he played his video games all the time. I would complain and wine abd he would get off for a bit to pls me then get back on when all is forgotten. My husband has always been an introvert so I know this is kind of an outlet for him. He worked took care of home and adores me and he would say before and during playing “let me know if you need anything” if the boys needed his attention he was there. He would pause his game and attend to the boys fussing and fighting over air. But as soon as he turned his game on I would fuss. And I think now…..all that fussing FOR WHAT??!! He was home with me at night very trust worthy great dad and we always were having fun weather it was jokes or play fighting. But still with my husband and 3 boys who loved me I was so needy. In the beginning of our relationship I think I was jealous of a video game.πŸ˜”

As the years have gone on I have become less needy and kinda take an interest in the games and what his clan is up to. I’m happy now that my husband has a outlet. He takes such good care of us at home and makes sure his family is taken care of. I have also found more outlets and started reading and writing again. Its helped with my confidence and I don’t feel as needy.

I was just sitting and thinking as I watch my husband play his game. Happy lazy Sunday folks from my bed to urs.

Facing my reality.

Hello beautiful humans my name is Tiffany and I have been wanting to start a blog for a long time and with all the changes in my life I thought why not start now. I don’t have a lot of girlfriends I’m always looking to talk /listen and always welcome feedback. My life has its up and downs but over all its been pretty good. I am a mother of 3 boys and married for 11 years this year. I lost my mom Dec. 13 of 2018 and over the last couple of months as the shock has worn off I have become sadder and reality has really hit me and hurts I can’t have a do over in life. I know we all feel this way at some point in life weather it be in ur home life, a relationship or just about that outfit you picked out today.

January of last year committed my life to go back to church and trying to build new relationships with God and other like minded ppl. I locked in christian radio stations (Way FM) is my most favorite. I never knew how much I needed the church outside the church. I love that I can worship, cry, talk to God on my way to work and home each day.

Well ladies and gents. Im about to put the boys to bed. Good night. And hopefully this will be the first of many blogs.😊